talking to myself

July 28, 2008

when life happens….

Filed under: Life — Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , , — crazygina @ 11:35 am

Everybody goes through things every day that helps to mold the reality they live in. When I am on the bus, walking down the street… I listen. I listen to people and what they are going through. I try to figure out or imagine how that person is feeling or what could be going on. When I see people on the bus with a scowl on their face, or looking at the window longingly … I sometimes want to go ask them what’s going on in their head. I don’t know why I want to know. I think maybe just the desire to have a greater understanding of the humans. ?? I also love watching human interaction because everyone is so different. Even me. I question myself a lot of times and sometimes I wonder if people see me and wonder what’s going on in my head…. or if they are just so wrapped up in their own ?? Anyway — just some thoughts I wanted to throw out there.

I am still freaked out by Friday when I was crying like a maniac – I don’t think I have ever cried like that in front of someone else before – ever. I think it was one of those things where I started crying about one thing – and then my friend was asking me about my brother (who died this year) so I started crying about that – and then he was asking me about the rest of my family so I started crying about that – oh man I was a blabbering mess. I should feel okay about it but for some reason I feel like I was weak and shouldn’t have shown that side of myself… but then again – I guess it’s okay to cry sometimes like that? It was a new experience for me lets just put it that way. If clarity is less than confusion than process. I am currently processing.

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1 Comment »

  1. I’m the “Still Sad” poster on the lives of others and I just wanted to thank you for taking the time to comment.
    Yours and everybody else’s kind words have helped a great deal. Both in helping me realise that I’m not the first person to feel this way and to see that if I don’t take the first step, I could be stuck for a long while yet.
    I took a shower today and it was like something had immediately changed. I’m no where near over it yet, but like you said – baby steps.

    Thank you sincerely. You and all who commented.

    Comment by Anonymous — July 28, 2008 @ 1:36 pm


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