talking to myself

May 16, 2009

something is brewing…..

Filed under: Life — Tags: , , , , — crazygina @ 10:37 am

Don’t know what it is ….it’s been brewing inside me for a while. It’s this cycle that I have been trying to break out of my entire life, but somehow I am still stuck in it. How much of it can I attribute to circumstances beyond my control and how much of it can I attribute to myself? Where you do say – I can’t do anything about this. ? I have always said where there is a will there is a way – and that anything is possible. Am I really not putting myself into things? Am I just pretending to myself? I don’t know what the hell I am doing, and I just try to stay positive but the lingering demon chickens are always pecking at me. I don’t know where to go from here. I really don’t. I get myself stuck – or did I ? Is it the uncertainty that leads me to this? Or is it just frustration? Is it frustration with myself or with others? Can the angst go away with stability? It’s all in my head so I know that it’s in my control – so why can’t I deal with it? What does deal with it even mean? Oh what a way to start today. :\

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1 Comment »

  1. i like how you are just writing what you feel. i just started a blog and am doing the same thing.

    nice.

    Comment by bakedwaffle — May 17, 2009 @ 6:27 pm


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