talking to myself

July 5, 2009

herbs

Filed under: Life — Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , , — crazygina @ 10:00 pm

So I am trying St. John’s Wart. I think that it will help with my moods. I hope that it does. I did some research and most sites say give it 4 to 6 weeks before you form an opinion. Me and my impatience…. will just have to wait. *sigh*

Nothing new. Gonna start making lists to keep myself doing things. Maybe feeling like I am accomplishing something will make me feel better. I just have a lot of anger inside me towards the world. I hate the hate… so it breeds more hate…. its a vicious cycle. dangit!

Wish me luck!

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July 3, 2008

RISE AND SHINE!!

Filed under: Life — Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , — crazygina @ 9:38 am

For some reason on my day off I decided to wake up at 6:00 and go to the gym…earlier than I ever wake up on a workday. I guess starting my day earlier makes it seem like I have a longer day…. and more time to get stuff done. Even though I wanted today to be a lazy day and didn’t want to do anything – now that I am up, I feel really motivated to get shit done. That will probably be better for me anyway.

I am finding lazy people more and more irritating lately.  I have a tattoo on my arm that says, “don’t even stand up if you have nothing to bring”, and it’s ringing true to me in so many ways… especially for myself.

I was depressed for about 2 months – feeling really terrible about my motivational status and lack of gumption for life. I knew that it would pass – but didn’t know when and I felt like such a bummer to other people. I am really hard on myself sometimes, I am learning how to just chill out though, at least a little bit. Sometimes I feel like if I am not hard on myself though, no one else will be, so it’s better that way. Until it drives me up a wall….or into a wall.

Another day – another blue sky and green trees to enjoy. I really hope you are finding something to enjoy today. There has to be at least one thing that made you smile today… and if not… find something. Okay if you don’t………do these work?

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