talking to myself

July 9, 2008

CERN particle accelerator

So I have been reading a LOT about the giant Hadron Collider…

And — all of the REPORTS keep drilling into everyone that it’s all hypothetical – and that the energy in space and time are constantly bombarding the earth with these energies millions of times a second. This may be true – BUT – it is also outside of our atmosphere. I have never heard of these energies being created inside or especially underground (where the accelerator is) – naturally. So… for them to say that these reactions and these ‘hypothetical’ situations are almost unfeasable … is crazy. they are completely feasable!!! We have NO idea what is going to happen when they turn it on. We are colliding hydrogen atoms together at almost light speeds in order to create new matter – look what happened when we split one atom. These collisions could do things that we have no idea. I feel like the report was somewhat vauge and their arguments is weak. (read it… tell me what you think…) It’s an experiment – exactly that. I am really interested to see what happens with this whole thing. For all they know – nothing could happen. For all they know – we could destroy the earth.
I am trying to find out exactly when this tentative date is that they plan on turning this thing on so that Sarah and I can have a “possible end of the world” party. They are waiting for all of the magnets to cool down to 1.9 degrees above absolute zero. Once that happens, they’ll turn it on. Does anyone know when this is supposed to be?? There is nothing on their website that says the timeline…..


July 8, 2008

apocolyptic dream

So I had this dream last night – and I have been thinking that my life has more purpose to it than I know… and I know it was just a dream, but it really seemed to be an affirmation more than anything.

There was this huge catastrophe in the world – a massive flood, think noah’s ark kind of flood… and there were a group of us who were on some high rise buildings… there were these waves coming in and everyone kept thinking that each wave was going to be the one that was going to take us out. For some reason I knew which wave was going to be the one… so I started trying to band everyone together and tell them to calm down and stop freaking out because that wave wasn’t the one that was going to be it. I just had this overwhelming feeling of responsibility and calmness. I knew that I wasn’t going to be able to save anyone – but it was more like I didn’t want everyone to be going all crazy on their last moments on earth. I know it’s a silly dream, but I do have this feeling that something is going to happen in the world and I am going to have some type of integral role in something… somewhere… somehow. It probably sounds crazy and my mom tells me that it’s a nutso thing to think… but I really feel it!!!!!!!

So yea… that was interesting.

Even though I slept last night, I am still exhausted. Exhausted but happy. The July optimism is working! WOOO! Thank goodness!

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