talking to myself

January 3, 2013

exhausted

Filed under: Life — Tags: , , — crazygina @ 3:22 pm

So I give him an ultimatum that he needs to MAKE TIME for me and what does he do? He tells me that I am rude and dismissive of his feelings….. 

He is TRYING to fight with me. I really don’t care about your friends computer or the components he put in it, or what he made it out of blah blah .. blah blh blah blh blah blah blah blah blah blah… I am on my work break at lunch.. I already listened to all his other ideas… so ..,. not only instead of being more loving and caring to show me that he cares, he FIGHTS with me.  HE FIGHTS WITH ME. 

I don’t know what that means and frankly I don’t care. He said i was being rude .. he says I tell him to “shut-up”… I have never told him to shut up ever. It isn’t fair… he is accusing me of being all these things that I am not. There is NO way to tell him I am not interested in what he has to say. He takes it SO personal. He thinks that just because I don’t happen to be interested in a certain topic that I am NOT INTERESTED IN HIM or what he has to say. 

It is totally irrational. Being not interested in a topic DOES NOT mean that I am not interested in him…but I can’t sit and listen to him go on and on and on about something. 

I can’t believe he turned this around on me.. he is so manipulative .. he is finding a way to make ME in the wrong so I feel bad .. instead of acknowledging that HE is in the wrong. He hardly ever acknowledges he is in the wrong. 

I will say right off the bat if I am being rude. I may have been rude to him, but can he seriously not handle even a little bit of someone being rude?! Why does everything all the time have to be perfect?! I am not allowed to get irritated or angry or anything like that. AAARRGGGAAAHHH!!!!

 

 

December 17, 2011

What can I do?

Filed under: Life — Tags: , , , , — crazygina @ 6:12 pm

What can I do? I am not really sure. I am stubborn. I want to finish what I start. I guess I should be appreciative when someone else steps in to help, but when I become frustrated and someone comes in and says, “here, you are getting frustrated… let me take over.. don’t worry about it.” It makes me MORE frustrated. It is hard for me to let things go that I have become frustrated or worked up about. I need to do some meditating. My heart is racing and I could feel myself getting angry and worked up. Because I didn’t want to stop working on something that I started.

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