talking to myself

August 22, 2008

it doesn’t make sense….

Filed under: Life, people — Tags: , , , , , , , , , , — crazygina @ 4:22 pm

I would understand if there was something really bad that I was doing… like taking tons of drugs, throwing my money away, getting drunk every night, not taking care of my health, anorexic, being suicidal or something like that, which was detremental to my well being… but well… I’m not.

Going out and partying … and drinking and/or hooking up sometimes with people as a single 24 year old in this world.. I don’t really think is that much of a bad thing. At least not enough for someone to berate you and tell you that you need to “grow up”…. especially someone with a college degree, my own apartment and my own buisness.

We only live once. We get the chance to meet new people – have new experiences – have a good time – HAVE FUN – enjoy life. I have my entire life to grow up….and even then… I’m not making any promises.

I really really don’t see my behavior worthy of intervention, especially when the behavior is partially instigated by someone else.

When I think back to some of the times I did bring people home – a few times it was just to piss off my roommate because I was mad at him… and then he reams into me for doing it – so obviously it worked to piss him off but it just makes him talk shit…. didn’t really serve it’s purpose too well.

Anyway – I will live my life how I want to – do what I want to – I don’t live with my parents or my brother and I don’t want to deal with a roommate that is going to make me feel like I am living with my parents. I moved out when I was 15 so I could live how I want.

Hopefully this weekend is relatively chill. I am looking forward to just getting all this crap out of my system and actually having a conversation with my roommate instead of an argument. If he wants to continue to cut into me – fine. I will be a ball of steel. I am just pissed he keeps putting me through this. You know what they say though – misery loves company.

I am happy. I am enjoying life. I am getting a new job. I get a 2 week vacation or so – I have to reschedule my shows – but overall things are okay. I have had to deal with show drama before so this is nothing I can’t handle.

Just like life. Bring it on.

State Fair tomorrow. Wine slushies, overpriced food, good people, exhibits…. YYYYYYYeeesssss!!!!!

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August 4, 2008

what weekend?

I was in a serious mood all weekend. At the dance party I was at the door all night – didn’t drink, didn’t dance. Nothing. Just worked at the door – and thank goodness for Ryan and Emily – who, without, I would have never been able to run the door in any kind of sane fashion.

Then Saturday I got up – went to bootcamp … then worked on some stuff at home – bought a few groceries – and then went to the movies with a friend. Saw the new Batman movie. I thought the whole thing was one giant action scene and the dialog was TERRIBLE. Now… granted the dialog doesn’t have to be the best thing in the world – but come on people. The action scenes were pretty bad ass though I will have to give them that. Overall I was kind of impressed, I wouldn’t have really gone out of my way to see it if I knew what it would have been like – maybe I should see it again? Sometimes the second time around I like movies better. We also missed the very beginning of the movie and I think that really bothered me throughout the whole thing. Just because I learned so much about movie beginnings in college and how important they are to the story. Eh. Maybe I will go see it again.
after the movie I went to a few bars and my roommate was out with his girlfriend and he was drunk. I ran into a bunch of people that I knew – and attempted to go to a dance party – but I didn’t drink and it was really late already so I just walked home alone …

Anyway – so saturday I missed a good friend’s wedding reception. I wrote it down in my planner and somehow completely missed it. I am so bummed. And I don’t have his number to get a hold of him since I had lost my phone – I feel like such a terrible friend 😦

Sunday I did laundry and a ton of band junk online. I now tell people to email me instead of myspace about shows – it’s SO much easier to keep track of dates that way.

I bought a bunch of blueberries since they were on sale at safeway, woohoo! And two avocados and some carrots. I read online about eating too many carrots turning you a orange-ish color (when I was on the carrot kick a week or so ago) and I thought that was a GREAT way to get a nice glow. I need more carrots! I ate an entire avocado yesterday that I mashed up and mixed some chicken into then ate it with some organic chips. It was really good. Yesterday I was so lethargic and I layed around almost all day – my whole body was just exhasted and I could barely get around the house and do anything without feeling almost narcoleptic.

This week is an interesting week. I hope the show goes well tonight – that way I will have money for this week – because if it doesn’t I could potentially be screwed at least until payday on friday. I am feeling much better about myself lately – and I know that it’s directly related to exercise, food and not drinking.

I wanted to party this weekend – but it just didn’t work out. Oh well. Maybe next weekend.

July 16, 2008

subliminal shampoo secrets

Filed under: Life — Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , , , — crazygina @ 11:44 am

yesss!! Alliteration.

Okay so I got this shampoo (okay I lied, it’s conditioner) and its called “drama clean”…

Now…. When I take a shower I normally thank my lucky stars that I even have an opportunity to take a shower – since so many people in this world don’t have those types of things. So I stand there, and while lathering up, am appreciative of the clean running water that I have.
And.. in my state of appreciation – and reflection, because who really doesn’t think about life while they are in the shower… okay maybe not everyone.. but other than being clean, I often start to ponder things. I was looking at the bottle of conditioner ….and thinking about the name of it, “drama clean”… and as I washed my hair, I actually started to dismiss the things that were bothering me. It was like, the conditioner was actually washing me of my drama. Now.. I know that their marketing for this conditioner probably wasn’t meant to actually have some kind of deeper impact on people, and I’m probably silly for thinking it – but it really worked. I conditioned my hair and thought to myself… ya know what? I don’t really care what other people do. I am just going to worry about myself. Let other people try to mess with me all they want, but damnit, I’m drama clean… MY CONDITIONER SAYS SO!!!

hahahahahahahhahaha I love amusing myself.

The show last night was bad ass. the bands were very very nice and the tour managers were very very nice (THAT’S ALWAYS GOOD!!). They played well and we had a decent amount of people there. All in all, another awesome show… it was… drama clean. 🙂

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